My blog seems dormant and i have decided to nudge it into functioning. I can almost see it yawn with irritation.(or relief)
There has been not much happenin around in my life to blog it. Pretty much nuthin. Its so mundane im starting to question my existence. One of the questions i have recently, to add to my misery, is growing up. So i went thru my bit during the teenage years. The desperate need to create an identity. With pimples, boyfriends and periods thrown in for good measure. And yeah, parents and deadlines and all that. This blossoming period has been discussed. But what people didnt tell me about was this period. You are on a budget. Or actually both my parents and I pretend im on a budget. which i regularly screw up. So the whole i wanna stand on my two feet bit. And then pressure to get placed. and placed well. and for nomads like me. where is a question. and how. and logistics and all that. now someone used to making decisions as big as whether its gonna be mcdonalds or pizza hut, this exactly my cup of anything. It isnt even a cup.
And then far off relatives, sometimes they are so far off you dont even knw if ur still related, pretending to be samaritans and call to ask if ur ok and alive n feeding the monkeys at the zoo. Then extending the samaritanism, ask if i have anyone in my life.and how i can always tell them and that they will help conquer the battle with my parents.(what!?! no really what!?!)
If this doesnt sound appetizing enuf, there are assignments of no consequence, lectures with alumni of no standing, sitting or even encroaching.
My point is my life is a blur, no wait is it unsharp?? (tryin to get my photography rite) no its a blur alrite of insignificant activity backed my resolution to bore my self to death.
You get it. I m soooo frustrated.